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Mething one has actively sought out Through her own decade long battle with anorexia which included three lengthy hospitalizations Osgood harrowingly describes the haunting and competitive world of inpatient facilities populated with other adolescents some as young as ten years oldWith attuned storytelling and unflinching introspection Kelsey Osgood unpacks the modern myths of I d had some great luck recently with reading Anorexia recovery accounts Going Hungry and Gaining were life changing I read the back and was really interested in How to Disappear Completely However upon reading it I found it difficult to get through not in that telling hard truths for personal growth way but in that holy crap this is triggering the daylights out of me kind of wayInitially it seemed like a solid premise and presents as being overall pro recovery She talks about her struggles with the competitiveness of Anorexia which I very much related to I approved of her choice not to detail her diets and rituals since I tend to find those triggering Then she spent a chapter detailing pro ana websites and their history uoting directly from them I know she and I seem to have ideological differences on the desire to develop anorexia but well it s her point of view and she s entitled to have it Honestly she started to lose me at the Wannarexics section She had just spent a part of the book talking about the problems with labeling and diagnosis which I also found problematic She falsely reports that EDNOS was taken out completely when really it was just changed to OSFED Other Specified Feeding or Eating Disorders Then she details a list of people to be called out and judged as wannarexics I get that her premise deep down may have been that the idea of wannarexia is another construction of anorexic competition but her list and the judgement apparent in the tone directly undermines it I was also extremely put off by her tone and language choices She revisits the idea that she had to prove that she was really sick or the best anorexic and to me this feels like another expression of this My experience of reading this was a person trying to win a contest for how sick she was and judge others as sicker or less sick I don t know the author s intent but her tone comes off throughout the book as judgmental full of scorn for those of us who weren t real anorexics I think what really bothered me was that Osgood states her truth as universal in many ways There s a lack of acknowledgement that her view and relationship with her ED isn t everyone s I recognize that this is a memoir her ideas about her life so I may just be being a rigid jerk But I couldn t get to the experience and found her writing hard to follow at times It wasn t as positive a reading experience as I had hoped with would be

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Anorexia examining the cult like underbelly of eating disorders in the young as she chronicles her own rehabilitation How to Disappear Completely is a brave candid and emotionally wrenching memoir that explores the physical internal and social ramifications of eating disorders and subverts many of the popularly held notions of the illness and most hopefully the path to recovery Author Kelsey Osgood actively pursued anorexia She describes how at the age of fourteen mesmerized by books about eating disorders she set out to become anorexic Mission accomplished Bravo I m being snarky people In the process she discovered anorexia is not as glamorous as it once seemed Osgood spends a fair amount of time criticizing other eating disorder centered literature for its romanticization of the disease Her contention being that such fare fosters eating disorders Although I do think anorexia is often portrayed in an attractive manner I do not think such fare can cause an eating disorder My belief is that the disease is biologically based To be sure it can be influenced by the media and other such factors these may even be the catalyst that sets a diet in motion but one must have a predisposition in order to develop a full blown eating disorder The problem is for the most part Osgood s own book does exactly what she purports to be against Despite her stable recovery How To Disappear Completely often reads as a love letter to her own battle The tenderness and even affection she still clearly feels for her years spent cycling through various institutions is evident To her credit she never gives the oft triggering numbers so sought outdespised numbers in terms of weight or calories However the overall nostalgia she feels permeates her writing

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She devoured their memoirs and magazine articles committing the most salacious details of their cautionary tales to memory how little they ate their lowest weights and their merciless exercise regimes to learn what it would take to be the very best anorectic When she was hospitalized for anorexia at fifteen she found herself in an existential wormhole how can one suffer from so It s definitely time for me to give up on this genre Again I really started out wanting to like this book and I was interested in reading a candid analysis of the eating disorder treatment subculture In the end the author does what I find so frustrating in all the other memoirs generalizes her experiences as THE universal recovery experience I can appreciate that she is trying to remove the glamor of illness and provide criticism but she does so without complexity or nuance let alone compassion essentially ascribing all eating disorders to cases of wannarexia gone too far inspired by memoirs with tips and thinspiration and the vanity of overprivileged teen girls who intentionally cultivate the illness and love being hospitalized Her research consists of reading the memoirs that inspired her to become ill rather than anything peer reviewed or so much as an interview She eventually admits that she is writing out of a desire to illuminate a subset of a problem but this doesn t come across in the manuscript We are left with the implication that this is how it is for most everyone with modern anorexiaToward the end I was trying figure out what the author was getting at and this seems to sum up the book Perhaps what we need to do is actually restore some of the myths about anorexia namely that it s a problem of vanity or resurrect some of the stigma that surrounds it in hopes that we move away from radically accepting itThat might be useful for the particular subset Osgood is writing about but in failing to present a diverse multicausational portrait of eating disorders this falls very very short of ideas that are applicable beyond her chosen archetype She focuses on exhibitionist and dare I say borderline traits But where are the people who work real jobs hide their illness or weren t raised in nice families who can finance multiple hospital stays She acknowledges toward the end that we ve all heard there is diversity in eating disorders yet her memoir lists page after page of rich teenage girls throwing temper tantrums in contrast to the pathetic older patients And predisposing risk factors and traits are completely out of the discussion I imagine because this would legitimize the illness Not to mention how hospital culture could influence behavior inside them while outside there may be people with different storiesThe above statement among many others may be gutsy if not audacious but sounding edgy or bold doesn t do anything to support an argument Frankly statements like this are downright damaging It s nothing groundbreaking to back up old stigmas and myths Why we d like to take a big leap backward in mental health education and counter the uphill efforts in recent years to reduce harmful stigmatized attitudes is beyond me Studies have shown again and again that stigma does nothing but make psychological problems their treatments and public education far worse I was initially hopeful to see some intelligent criticism of the general discourse in recovery memoirs and there are some really great insights here and there But in the end this seemed like just another entirely simplistic reading Osgood criticizes memoir writers as she tries to set the record straight not exactly an unworthy cause if not self important but in the end she falls into the trap of yet again universalizing her experience and presenting an egocentric view of the essence of an entire diagnosis as if a trivial explanation can be generalized I like that she wants to deglamorize anorexia and is willing to call out some bullshit but I don t think a return to old stereotypes or reducing the problem to dramatic displays and adolescent whims is the way to do itI also find the premise unnerving Osgood sets out to overturn all the other memoirs out there but what exactly is compelling about her book on its own It seems to only be written as a rebuttal which is fine enough I guess but for a compelling literary piece that would stick with me longer I want to see something new here not just a rejection of other ideas and perhaps worse a call for a return to the old If she is writing to young girls who are reading memoirs for tips or writing to her former self then she does what she sets out to do But I imagine there are many others with diverging stories and her generalizations serve to stigmatize shame and silence It downright invalidates other narratives I also think this book could be potentially damaging if friends or family members are reading for understanding or educationOn the surface this reads like a reasonable reply to pro anorexia forums but I m concerned that it also reduces eating disorders to no than these attitudes Pop media articles are already all over how terrible websites are converting our children to illness this just reads as a sophisticated version of that old diatribe There is a lot going on but we get the opposite message as we read each decry against other writers and each description of yet another exemplary fitful teen and I can t help but wonder if any of their stories were complex or if these displays were a product of the hospital environment or anorexia although the complexity is what the author is arguing against Perhaps if the author had better defined the scope of her work and its limits I would have had patience as a reader


10 thoughts on “How to Disappear Completely

  1. says:

    It's definitely time for me to give up on this genre Again I really started out wanting to like this book and I was inter

  2. says:

    If you're just looking at the back cover copy or various other blurbs it's very hard to tell what this book is about so I'll try to summarize briefly This book is about the culture of anorexia—not just about the disease itself but about how the many books movies articles websites and TV shows about it affect and even har

  3. says:

    Myopic snooty and with such a lack of insight that it pained me to see this to the end I'm in concert with everyone else here who's critiued Osgood's universalizing and alienating read elitist rhetoric throughout I'd also add that the

  4. says:

    The author seems very concerned with copycat behaviours people newly anorexic following in the footsteps of those who write about it within books or blogs This seems to have put a lot stress on what the author she feels she can write and I found what I read to be insufficient for someone hoping to learn about the issue pl

  5. says:

    I'd had some great luck recently with reading Anorexia recovery accounts Going Hungry and Gaining were life changing I read the back and was really interested in How to Disappear Completely However upon reading i

  6. says:

    The only thing good about this book was how it directed me to not read Wasted I immediately returned the shaming book and bought Horn

  7. says:

    I don't know how I feel about this one So let's go on this ride together as I figure it out I feel things for the author

  8. says:

    The irony of this book is that Osgood tried so hard to show why her memoir was going to be less triggeringdamaging

  9. says:

    Author Kelsey Osgood actively pursued anorexia She describes how at the age of fourteen mesmerized by books about eating disorders she set ou

  10. says:

    Premise wise Osgood sets out to do something that is far too uncommon in this type of memoir she seeks to tell her story without nu